By the time this posts, I will have already attended your memorial service and will be a mess, I’m sure. But I want to remind myself to be positive, even though this is an almost impossibly hard time.
I lost an amazing friend on Monday. It wasn’t her fault, but life doesn’t really care who’s fault it is. She did everything she possibly could, but it wasn’t enough. Don’t dwell on it. There is absolutely no way of knowing that it would happen—don’t keep thinking “Oh, if I would’ve just called her and told her to stay an extra 5 minutes at home” or anything along those line—It can’t change what has already happened.
DO remember her as the amazing, beautiful, happy woman that she was. You rarely ever saw her sad. She was always smiling, singing, or dancing (or a combination of all three). She lost so much weight in the past two years. It’s AMAZING. She was beautiful before, but also beautiful after. She lived an incredible life. She was able to travel, with her parents, her friends, and even our band. She had more friends than you could imagine.
She may be gone, physically, but she will ALWAYS be with you, and everyone whose lives she touched. She will live on through you, her friends, and her family.
Don’t dwell on the sadness. She would be upset that you did. Remember her like she would want to be remembered. :)
We love you, Black Diamond. Your Butter (Butta’ :P) misses you. I’m sure you’re partying it up where ever you are. I’m SO glad I got to spend the three years I did with you. I hope to see you again someday, if something like heaven exists. My life was changed by knowing you, and you will live on through all of the lives you touched.
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Sooo I managed to freak myself out thoroughly with the possibility of a medical issue and I’ve been worrying about it all day. I need to schedule an appointment to get a refill on medication anyway, so I suppose I’ll get it checked out then (and hopefully that means this week.) Buuut I don’t think I’m gonna release any details til I know for sure what’s happening. Probably just overreacting, but better to be safe than sorry! :)